Friday, March 22

i think i deserve a medal.

Today I'm really proud of myself.
I got out of bed before noon...
I've been having a really hard time since i had a miscarriage a week ago :(
Like a really hard time.
I had no idea how painful it would be- both emotionally and physically.
and how awful it would be to feel so depressed.
I have a new appreciation and admiration for those who have had to go through worse than I have.
You people rock.

Luckily I have the best husband in the world who has been so understanding and loving.
I also have the best parents who drove out here when they heard.
and brought me some early birthday presents. we all know that presents help ;)
I have the best of friends/cousins who have made sure that I'm okay
...the cards...texts...diet cokes... chocolate... i loved it all.


So today was a big deal. I woke up at 8:30 and didn't go back to sleep. I feel like I should get a medal or somethin.
I actually got up and ran 5 miles which was a huge boost to my spirit!
It's crazy what a few endorphins will do to your hijacked-by-hormones body.

Anyway... I don't want to be too depressing here, but it helps me to write about it.
My blog has always been too happy anyway... right? ;)

xoxo steph.

10 comments:

  1. Love you Screwdriver! You are the best and def deserve a medal! At least a sonic diet coke ;) or another GIRLS TRIP!

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  2. Stephanie- Sending love your way! Stay strong. Mike always tells me, through all the struggles we've had, that our time will come. Your time will come and these experiences will help you appreciate and love it even more!

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  3. Oh Steph I am so so sorry. I'll be thinking about you and sending prayers your way! You are amazing and I just think the world of you!!!

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  4. So incredibly sorry for the painful, emotional time. Starting a family is such a roller coaster of feelings and experiences. Just know that there will be many wonderful highs to come. I know you'll get your well deserved medal and ALL your babies in the next life:) xx

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  5. Oh Steph this just breaks my heart! I am so sorry you have to go through this trial right now, I can't even imagine how hard it must be. What amazing parents you have to come and support you like that. I've never met them but I already love them for doing that. Wish I could come give you a hug in person but know that we are thinking of you and love you guys so much! ((HUGS))

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  6. I'm so sorry...how heartbreaking that must be. I think you have every right to just want to stay in a bed for a while, and you have definitely won a medal for getting up and running today. I hope that every day becomes easier for you.

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  7. I'm so sorry Steph and sending prayers your way. You are going to be the best mama just like your own wonderful mom!

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  8. I was heartbroken when I heard the news. Glad that you are feeling a tad bit better. You have an amazing support system. Love your family. Thinking about you!!

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  9. This can't be easy to talk about. Thank you for sharing this with us.

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  10. Love you, I am so sorry. I can't imagine how hard that must have been. You are amazing and I absolutely adore you!!

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